do you remember the very first words we spoke to each other? how they changed everything about you, and about me, and how they slowly turned us into what we are today. 

do you remember the first time i was in your arms at the airport? how neither of us could say a word. up until that moment, words had been all we ever had. words that for months desperately tried to explain all of those millions of emotions we felt during just that split second when we first finally touched.

do you remember the first night we spent together? with my head on your chest and your fingers in my hair. matching heartbeats. words were unnecessary, but we spoke them anyway. for hours we just existed. we just existed in this state of mind where time flew by but nothing changed, we remained the same and knew that it was enough to just be. after awhile you leaned in and i looked into your eyes and i saw you, for all you are and all you ever will be, and we kissed. it felt like hours passed but again, nothing changed. we simply survived on the air that left our lungs. everything was surrounded by this raging calm, both still and loud, and it still to this day amazes me how that could be. 

do you also remember the very last thing i said to you at the airport before you left? after our kiss goodbye and after my fingers were untangled from your hair and your hands had left my waist. do you remember what i told you, with tears streaming down my face, as you turned your back and walked away?

“i love you.”

i do. i thought i had loved before, but i have never in my life loved anyone or anything as much as i love you and everything you are. i know it’s not easy, it’s never been and never will be, but i also know that when we fight or when we feel like it’s too hard, love will find a way. because i would not be who i am today if i wouldn’t have met you. you turn me right around, you guide me, you hold me up whenever i need you to carry me. you’re the kind of person who would never let the weight on my shoulders get heavier than i can handle. we’re not two seperate persons anymore, we’re us. and we are one.

i love you. i really, really do.