thank you :) definitely, i’m not self-conscious anymore - i’m proud of my back, my scar and my story. if i could walk around and show off my scar every day i would.
pain wise it’s a lot better, the worst part right now is how over sensitive the scar is. it’s a burning and stinging sensation throughout the day, especially if i accidentally touch it or bump into it. no one is allowed to tough my right side at all. i’m told that might not go away, but it should atleast get better over the next few years to a point where i can live with it. also i’m still completely numb over my shoulder blade, no feeling whatsoever.

it’s funny - right after surgery when i was taking short walks (“recovery walks”) i kept leaning and walking to the left - it was like my feet where leading me left instead of straight. i had to twist to the right and think “walk right, right, right” for a few weeks until i got used to actually having a balanced spine and body that COULD walk straight. i guess before surgery i’d gotten used to slightly walking to the left because of the way my body was twisted. that’s all gone today though! just a memory i have from the post-op experience.

running is still kind of uncomfortable, not painful, but it feels weird and i guess i have to ease into it. i haven’t been allowed to run at all up until last week when i had my first appointment with my surgery who told me everything looked good and that i was officially free to do whatever i want, so it might take some practice.

other than that i feel pretty normal. the biggest change is probably that my neck- and torso movement is very, very limited when it comes to turning sideways. so i can’t look behind me unless i fully turn my whole body around. i’ve also had some problems laying on my stomach cause i can’t lift up my head, my spine can’t really bend backwards at all. that’s mainly a problem when i swim, but i’m getting used to it. bending normally, down to the floor or stuff like that is no problem.

longest answer ever. rant over!
thansk for asking :)